sat 9:54pm...the emo kid who just turned 13

is it just the music i'm listening to now, or do i feel sad?
i mean, i did finish homework today(finally!) with Wei Qian at macdonalds, so i should be celebrating my guts out and everything.
or maybe i've just gone slightly wonky today.
We spent four hours in Mcdonalds, sitting in a corner, trying not to notice the staff notice us not eating much but occupying the seats for almost half the morning. doing homework. on the first day of the year. it just gets this interesting.
and then we walked back over to my place and had a phineas and ferb song-a-thon. and we walked down along the road singing and bumping into each other like a pair of drunken retards on drunken retard pills.

platypuses rock. ROCK.  

some people stared. one old man ignored us. and then we saw the bus coming and ran to the bus stop just in time to save 10 mins of our life. and then guess what?
we continued our song-a-thon in the bus. out loud.
what was i thinking?!


but i guess the reason why i'm sad today is because i got a message from my friend jairia, and she suspects that we won't be in the same Cell Group next year :(  and i added a non-smiley face to prove how sad i am :(

sad person on sad pills

which should prove to be true since she got a message from her new Cell mentor that non of my other friends in church had received. i guess that means that at least i won't be alone, but i really want to be with Jairia ( not in a lesbiany way)
i mean, we smashed choco covered banana at each other at church camp! and i even almost kicked her at night when we were sleeping! and she's the only friend that i have who knows more phineas and ferb songs than anyone i know. and she's not into any k-pop. oh well. we can still hang out just not during cell time. i am really sad if you think i'm not being direct enough :( :( :( :(